Here we go!

Well, the semester has started. Oh yes...it's started. It's my senior year, and I'm terrified. This semester I'm due for the big oral theological examination, which I am terrified about. There is a review course for it throughout the semester...but it's still so much to learn. On top of that I have six other classes, mostly senior classes, that are pretty heavy as far as homework goes. The first week I had a little mental breakdown because I just couldn't see how I would be able to get all of that done as well as work about 30 hours a week. And I don't want to merely complete all of my assignments...I want to learn for life. I want to soak it in, let it change me. Will I have enough time?

BUT GOD...aren't those amazing words? So many times in Scripture, the worst scenarios are given...we are reminded of the monsters we used to be...and then we see the words, "BUT GOD". Already He has begun to show me that: yes, He still loves me, and is going to provide for me; yes, I will have to work hard, but it will be so rewarding in the end; yes, He is going to care for my every need. Last week He provided for me by helping restore previous friendships, make new ones, and create an opportunity for me to get away from campus for most of Sunday with a couple good friends. I laughed so much that day, and in the following days as the result of the fun time we had. This week He has provided by having my boss offer me a promotion that may result in me working less days, but get more pay. He takes care of the big things AND the little things, which gives me confidence. I know He will carry me through.

This doesn't go to say that life isn't difficult or painful, because it most definitely is. There are a lot of heartaches, old and new, that I must deal with every day. BUT GOD is always here, and always has His arms open to me. Although now may not be the time that He wipes away tears, I know His constant presence will always be a comfort to me.

Did I arrange the light of your first day?
Did I create the rhythm your heart makes?
Could you believe when your candle starts to fade?
I want to be the One that you believe
Could take it all away, take your heart away

I'm the One that you've been looking for
I'm the One that you've been waiting for
I've had My eyes on you ever since you were born
I will love you after the rain falls down
I will love you after the sun goes out
I'll have My eyes on you after the world is no more...