Wondering

Life is so crazy sometimes. I feel like, as a child, the thought of becoming a college student and "growing up" seemed so far away that it would just never happen. Now I'm in the middle of it, and it seems to fly by before I can blink twice. Not only am I changing as a person, but the people around me are changing so quickly. I've lost count of how many of my friends are either getting married or skipping the whole marriage thing and just getting pregnant first. So many things are happening at once, I almost can't focus on one solitary thing.

I have to keep my attitude in check, because when I see all of this happening I get so jealous. I find myself wishing I at least had a boyfriend, but knowing that I really just want to get married like everyone else. At one point I was semi-close to being engaged, but now I'm back to a lonely square one. Why?

But through all this...I know what is right. I know all the answers, in my head at least. I'm waiting for those answers to slowly creep down into my heart, for the truth of God's word to give me the peace that surpasses all understanding. I know God loves me more than I could ever imagine, and that He has a plan for me. It's just so difficult sometimes for me to see beyond my own nose.

Philippians 4:4-7
Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. the Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.